Hello everyone! I hope you all had a wonderful weekend. I took the weekend off from social media and being online (much needed as you can imagine). So I didn’t post any new prompts for you in the last couple of days. Sorry about that, we all need some downtime though.
Today’s prompt is about letting go of past mistakes. I’m probably going to regret this but I also feel like it’s necessary. I’m sure if you have seen my show on My 600 Pound Life on TLC and you have googled or looked online about me then you have seen I have a past. I know it’s a shocker, it always amazes me how people post things online as if they have never had any mistakes in their lives.
“I have a past but I don’t live there anymore.” -unknown
So, yes I have legal charges for Medicaid fraud and identity theft. I have never tried to hide this or say it wasn’t true. In fact, the main reason it is out there is that I mentioned it in my background story I wrote for this blog. I spoke on it during my episode interviews but they choose not to include it. I have no control over what they use and don’t use, obviously. So it was brought up, by me. Many outlets saw it on my blog, picked it up, and then it was unleashed out into the world.
I am not going to rehash with the world what happened, why it happened, or how it happened. I admitted guilt when I took a plea bargain to avoid any jail time. You can read the charges yourself, the report is out there and easy to find now thanks to the people of the internet. So that’s really all that needs to be said about the crime, it’s laid out clearly for you.
Let’s just say I made mistakes as we all have. My mistake may have been a huge one and a really bad one but we all make mistakes. Here is what I have to say about it. It is what it is. I often wish I could turn back time, fix the issue and not have been arrested and charged. I learned from it though. I own my part in it, I own that it happened and I own that it changed my life drastically. I am the sole reason that I lost everything I had worked to attain.
It was five years ago. I have been on probation, not been in any trouble since (or before actually), and paid all of my restitution as required. If I hadn’t done those things I’d be in prison right now for violating my probation. So yes all money that was involved is being paid back. It doesn’t make it right but I have done my punishment. I am one to never hold someone’s mistakes against them. If they are trying to improve themselves, they have done their punishment, then that is enough. So that’s what I have to say, enough.
Today’s journal prompt is all about learning from our mistakes. We can learn a lot about the mistakes that haunt us. Download the free printable below or just write it in your journal. List all of your mistakes that stand out, the big ones. Then next to that write all of the lessons you have learned from your mistakes. Now spend some time reflecting. How do these mistakes tie into my addictive food eating? Do I eat more or have more cravings when I think about them? How can I learn about my patterns to improve my ability to cope in the future?
Let me know in the comments (positive comments please) what you have learned from your mistakes. Not what I have learned from my mistakes or should learn but what you got out of this activity.